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Monday, March 6th, 2006
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7:31 pm - soo coolness
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| Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
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6:21 pm - AWESOMENESS DAY
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today has been a totally awesome day. I got up this morning at a little after seven, was texting my bf(let's call him Kevin, made up but it works) this morning a little bit. he was sooo up before i was this morning and that is not normal, he ussually sleeps in a bit on his day's off. he picked me up for school. had school from nine till noon. Kevin picked me up and we headed to my house to drop off my school stuff. he was scaring me a bit when he picked me up and on the way to my house. He was cussing a bunch today too, he's ussually not that mouthy. I dropped my stuff off at the house took care of the goodwill and headed to his house. at his house, we decided to lay down on his bed and watch X MAN 2. originally that is *EVIL GRIN*. not going into detail or anything. that would be too much info for the public. sorry too personal. Kevin is soo cute when he sleeps, all curled up in a ball, too cute. i didn't wanna leave either or get off his bed. he's got a really comfortable bed. i was laying on his chest and it just felt really good, like i was supposed to be there for the rest of my life. my wish is that i could sleep like that every single night and be able to wake up and find him lying next to me. it really hurts every time i leave him. i have never loved any guy as much as i love him. it's gonna hurt even more when summer comes around when i won't be able to see him very much. he'll be here and i'll be all the way out in oregon. not cool, but going out there will be a good oportunity for me, so i'm going out there.
we left his house at a little after 3 and went to mcdonalds for lunch, went through drive-thru. then he dropped me off at my house. found out i didn't have to work tonite. liked that alot, but i wish i would have been able to spend it with kevin.
my sister and i decided to watch a movie called NIGHT SHIFT, really good movie. after that was over, i took our dog outside. i got a strong erge to run, so i decided to run around our house 3 or 4 times. 2nd or 3rd time going around i got caught in the dog's leash and fell straight on my knees. that really hurt. my times were pretty good. i asked my sister to time me so she did. 1st time was 00:00:14:77. the 2nd time i gto a 00:00:13:00. that i was really proud of. today's been a really awesome day. the best was when i was with kevin in his bedroom *ANOTHER EVIL GRIN*.
current mood:  sore
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| Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
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8:53 pm - hey sup
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i know i haven't written in a while. alots happened. got a bf on 6th of january. we've had some difficulties but we're hanging in there. he's the best thing that's ever happened to me. i have never loved someone as much as i love him. he's changed my life for the good and some bad. i don't know sometimes if i really like who i've become and what i've done. this summer i'm gonna be away from it all and it might do me some good. i need some time to think things through. i sometimes feel like everything is calapsing around me and i can't breathe.
ever since my bf came around, everything has become unberable. i have hurt so many people becuz of him. my heart has been torn in two and my mind has been soo messed up trying to figure out which way i want to go and what i want to do for my future. i have been having alot of trouble concentrating in school too becuz of all this. haven't even gotten that much sleep either.
this week hasn't been that great either. saturday, i about froze in my car cz my car wouldn't start and it was one of the coldest nights of the year. sunday was alot of fun though. my bf took me 2 hrs from where i live for lunch, then that night we saw when the stranger calls. good movie, by the way. when i got back from the movie, i stayed up till 1 or 2 in the morning studying for a test. the next day i studied about 2 more hours. monday, i got my english essay back and i failed that. i also blanked on the test and failed that, a 52%. staying up late and studying pretty much went down the toilet. i was mad as hell.
yesturday after work i decided to go for a run. that felt good. but then when i got home, i got more bad news. my car had been acting a bit wierd, so i had a friend of my families check it out. found out i have a busted heater core in my car, and i mean a totalled one and the earliest i can get it in to get it fixed(in the garage) is next thursday. the guy who looked at my car said that it would be a bad idea to drive it, so i'm without a car until late next thursday night. because of my run yesturday, i may have a sprained ankle, cuz it is really killing me to walk on it. CAN MY WEEK GET ANY WORSE.
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| Monday, September 19th, 2005
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9:21 pm - MY WONDERFUL, AWESOME, AMAZING WEEKEND....AND TODAY
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HEY WHAT UP? NOT MUCH HERE. LOVED MY WEEKEND. SOO AWSOME.
FRIDAY. GOT OFF WORK EARLY. SO LOVED IT. I GOT A VERY UNEXPECTED CALL FROM BEN. SOO AWESOME. WE TALKED FOR I THINK AN HOUR. HE MIGHT BE COMING TO SEE ME THIS WEEKEND SOO AWESOME IF HE CAN. TODAY I ALSO SET UP A MEETING WITH MY EX BOYFRIEND. ASSHOLE. I THINK THAT WAS TODAY. IT WAS SOO GOOD TO TALK TO MY OHIO FRIEND. HE IS SUPOSED TO SEND THAT PICTURE SOON. I HOPE HE DOES I SOO WANT TO SEE IT. WE TALKED ABOUT THE WHOLE THING WITH MY EX BOYFRIEND. HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW HIM AND HE'S TRYING TO GIVE ME ADVICE ANYWAY. HE WANTS ME TO JUST STAY AWAY FROM HIM AND HE DOESN'T TRUST HIM EITHER.
SATURDAY. GOOD DAY. AT LAST MINUTE I DESCIDED TO GET MY HAIR TRIMMED AND LAYERED. MOM SAID NO AT FIRST, SAID I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING WITH IT TILL I'M 21. SHE CHANGED HER MIND THOUGH. IT'S MY HAIR ANYWAY. LOVE IT THOUGH. FRIENDS CAME OVER TODAY. GOT ANOTHER CALL FROM BEN. HE NOW KNOWS STUFF THAT I DIDN'T TELL MY FRIENDS UNTIL 3 YEARS AFTER I MET THEM. TOO MUCH I THINK. BUT I TRUST HIM. IT WAS SO AWSOME TALKING TO HIM. I STILL LIKE HIM WHICH IS NOT UNUSUAL. I WENT TO WORK TONIGHT.
SUNDAY. TALKED TO OHIO FRIEND FOR 2 OR 3 HOURS. JUST GOT LOTS TO TALK ABOUT. HE KEEPS DOING THAT GROWL THING AND IT MAKES ME GO CRAZY. AT 5 I HAD TO WORK. SOO AWSOME AT WORK. DUSTIN, ONE OF THE GUYS I WORK WITH. HE KEPT TRYING TO KICK MY BUT AND I KEPT TRYING TO KICK HIS. ONCE THOUGH I ALMOST SCREWED UP MY KNEE AGAIN. HE KNEW I WAS GOING TO KICK HIS BUT WHEN HE PAST BY ME, SO HE WAS READY FOR IT. WELL HE BLOCKED MY KICK WITH HIS LEG AND MY FOOT GOT CAUGHT ON HIS LEG AND I WENT DOWN STRAIGHT ON MY KNEE. SOO OUCH. HE ALSO HIT ME WITH A WET RAG. I'M SUPRISED I DON'T HAVE WELT. REALLY HURTS. HE ALSO TRIED TO BUT DANCE WITH ME. HE KEPT TRYING TO RUB HIS BUT UP AGAINST MINE. HE WAS IN A GOOD MOOD ALSO. I COULDN'T HELP BUT SMILE.
TODAY..... I WENT TO WORK ALL HAPPY STILL ABOUT MY SOOOOOO AWESOME WEEKEND. WEREN'T THAT BUSY. DIDN'T TAKE A BREAK TILL 3:15. KIND OF LATE. I HAD TO RUN HOME CUZ I FORGOT A CHANGE OF CLOTHES. ALMOST LATE BACK TO WORK THOUGH, CONSTRUCTION AND SCHOOL TRAFFIC. HATE THEM. REALLY ANOYING. AFTER WORK, I CHANGED, WENT AND DID SOME ARRENDS, GOT GAS IN MY CAR, ALMOST GOT RUN OVER TODAY(CAR ACCIDENT ALMOST AGAIN). LADY WASN'T PAYING ATTENTION. IT WOULD HAVE BEEN HER FAULT. ANYWAY, I WENT TO RENFREW PARK WHERE I WAS SUPPOSED TO MEET MY EX BOYFRIEND. I GOT THERE AT 6:05, SUPOSED TO MEET AT 6:15. HE DIDN'T SHOW UP. I WAITED TILL 6:30 FOR HIM TO SHOW UP. NEVER DID. WELL THAT'S OVER. I GUESS HE DOESN'T REALLY WANT ME BACK. I'LL FIND SOMEONE ELSE. SO WHAT. DON'T NEED ANYBODY RIGHT NOW ANYWAY.
I SOO CAN NOT WAIT TILL THIS WEEKEND. I TOLD YOU ABOVE. BEN MIGHT BE COMING TO SEE ME THIS WEEKEND. HE IS GONNA TRY TO AT LEAST. I WISH I WISH HE DOES COME. I JUST HOPE I HAVEN'T JINXED IT. I WILL BE SOO UPSET IF HE DOESN'T COME. I MISS HIM SOOO MUCH. I HAVEN'T SEEN HIM SINCE JUNE. I AM JUST COMPLETELY FORGET ABOUT MY EX. HE IS SUCH A FUCKING GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKING ASSHOLE WHO NEEDS TO GET A LIFE. I WISH I KNEW WHAT I SAW IN HIM. HE IS SUCH AN ASSHOLE THAT JUST WANTS TO RUIN GIRLS LIVES.
TA TA KITTY
current mood:  crazy
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| Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
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9:28 pm
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The Ultimate Personality Test
The Real You: A Scientific Analysis
you're a Secret Agent!
You're a smart, shrewd loner. Chances are although you prefer solitude; you're a deeply caring person full of energy and ideas. On a personal level, you're sensitive. You may worry too much about how you compare to others, and your mood suffers under such intense personal scrutiny.
You like to eat lunch at your desk. You also have a critical eye that assures your final product is always top rate.
And that's just scratching the surface!
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What Are You Afraid Of?
Your Fears May be Controlling You More Than You Think
you are most afraid of moving forward
Have you ever noticed that you're more concerned about making the "right" decisions than many people around you when it comes to your future? Or do you sometimes worry more than you should about committing to your personal or professional goals or feel anxious that you'll never really be successful? If so, you're not alone. There are many people who share your fear of moving forward.
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Do You Follow Your Heart or Your Head?
LeeAnn, you follow your head when it comes to romance
Maybe you've been burned before, or maybe you're just too busy changing the world, but when it comes to your love life, you definitely look before you leap. While you might not be cautious in every aspect of your life, love is an area you tread on lightly. Let's face it, you'd rather have a little more control over your emotions, but they're sometimes hard to pin down. So rather than get lost in them, you, and many of us, probably prefer to focus on other aspects of your life.
It's not that you don't want love to wash over you so you feel all warm and fuzzy inside. It's just that you'd probably like to fall in love when it best fits into your calendar. Still, with your smarts, you're probably able to sense when you're up for a little romancing and when you're not. Just remember, if you're ever on the fence, you want to fall off on the side where someone's going to catch you. Especially if he's tall, dark, and handsome.
Have you got your facts straight? See how much you know about drugs.
It can be a real strength to recognize your fears. By being aware of the things that frighten you, you can assess whether fear is helping you or negatively impacting your life. For instance, a fear of moving forward may sometimes motivate you to take action in a positive way, like by experiencing a wider variety of things than others.
However, fear's negative aspects can sometimes be more damaging than you realize. Living with fear not only prevents you from living life to the fullest; it can also have a significant negative impact on your energy, health, and your close relationships if not kept in check.
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What's Your Best Quality?
Use What You've Got to Get What You Want
your best quality shines through in how Romantic you are
The fact that you're a romantic and affectionate person who can radiate passion — whether for certain ideas or for matters of love really draws people to you! But that's not the only thing. Your answers on the test indicate you're a hopeful and optimistic person who tends to look on the bright side of life. You are an inventive and creative person who usually has an abundance of imagination and ideas, too.
In all, there are 15 qualities that help define you when you're at your best. Those are the traits potential employers, friends, and partners look for in you. What makes you unique is your particular distribution of those 15 qualities.
We've found that your particular combination of qualities is rare — only 1 in 10,000 people share the same general mix of traits. Those are great odds if you're trying to show a potential employer, colleague, friend, or date why you're exactly the right person for them.
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The Dream Interpretation Test
What's Your Dream Theme?
LeeAnn, the recurrent theme of your dream life is Divine Inspiration
You're dreaming about feeling deeply connected to the universe and to those around you. This means that you're likely tapping into a sense of uplifting freedom and awe of the greater things in life.
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The Imagination Test
What shapes how you see things?
LeeAnn, your imagination is fueled by a subconscious desire for Innocence.
The stories in the deepest recesses of your imagination suggest that you have a strong longing to feel innocent and to have a clear conscience. They may also indicate that you are unable to forgive yourself for something that happened in your past.
Your subconscious feeds your imagination. It is where your deepest thoughts and feelings are housed and it has great power over how you experience and interpret the world.
You can't control your subconscious, but you can learn from it. In fact, it's the fastest path to knowing what you really need and want. Do you have needs that are going unfulfilled? Are you puzzled by how you interpret events? Do you have issues that you want to address, but you don't know where to begin? It's possible your imagination is trying to tell you something.
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9:16 pm - Oh, wow i'm a ducky
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 The cutest of the cute, these baby ducks are often spotted in the spring following closely behind their mother. As a duckling you will grow up quickly, becoming one of the adult ducks seen commonly in ponds and streams. Playful and timid, charming and vulnerable, ducklings are nature's very definition of innocence. You were almost a: Frog or a ChipmunkYou are least like a: Turtle or a GroundhogWhat Cute Animal Are You?
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| Saturday, August 27th, 2005
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10:44 am - Not Much Here
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hello hoow are you guys today? i'm alright. omg. I am soo going to hurt a few of my co workers. Jamie-codename and Katie- codename, are driving me crazy. Jamie had this big idea to ask a guy for his number FOR ME. so not cool. I don't need a boyfriend right now. i have other things, important things to worry about, that does not include boys. I start college next week at Hagerstown Community College. I don't need any distractions. Another thing. Katie wouuld not stop saying i slept with the "weather man." he's soo not my type. I want to have a guy that i would probably be able to talk to everyday and see whenever i want. like somebody who lives in my hometown, waynesboro.
I wish i was different and not some shy, perfect angel or the goody two shoes most people say i am. I want to be daring and be out going and get any boy at any time. I wish i could do what i could do in germany. go to discos, go to parties, go out drinking, and have a blast, even get laid. Maybe. I want to know how it feels. I want to be spactacular. I want to be the girl that every guy wants to be or even have. I miss having a boyfriend. I miss soo many things. I don't know anymore what i want to do or be in my life. I know i want to follow my heart and what my heart feels. I want people to know i exist and be remembered. My dad once told me to open up and i don't know how to do that. I want to though. I want to be like you janie. You and my sister are my role modiles. i don't think i spelled that right. i have always been jelous of my sister because she can have any guy in the world.
Do you remember my ex boyfriend, janie? well i saw him last night. I still like him. But my sister said something to me last night. she said that if she went for younger guys like him, she would go out with him because of how nice he is. i wish i had never met the guys i have met because all they have done is gotten me all confused and heartbroken. i really don't know what to do. i want to forget everything. I always wished that i could go somewhere where nobody knows who i am and start my life all over as a new person. that is my wish. That is why i wanted to go far away for college. to start anew. and be a different person. well that is all i have to say. byez.
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| Friday, August 19th, 2005
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12:11 pm - Hey wuz up
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Hey wut up? Not much here. I love having a 3 day vacation from work. I have been working non-stop since who knows when. I really hate work sometimes. I so got into trouble by my dad the other day. He thought i was supposed to get out of work at 10:30 the other night and i didn't get home til midnight. So not cool. That night, omg, i got out of work at 11 and i was there talking to one of my coworkers, Dustin is his name, for an hour. He is so hot. He wanted to know why i was breaking it off with one of my friends in cleveland, his name is Ben, so i let him read a letter i wrote that i was going to send him. I almost made dustin cry, i thought that was soo funny. Well, Dustin, said that the poem reminded him of part of his past and asked me if i could write it down for him. The only problem with Dustin is the fact that he smokes. I do not like people who smoke. It is a very bad habit. Don't get me wrong or anything, it is their desition to do it but why would you even start? It is harder to quit than to start. And you die earlier too. I still think Dustin is hot, though. I don't think he knows it though. Well i used to like him before and he knew about that but i don't think he knows i still like him. Back in april he was supposed to be my date to prom but my boss hired him because he could work that night, soo i ended up just going with a few friends and it ended up as a huge disaster. I was trying to make the best of it but my friends were just never in the mood for it.
I soo loved my summer thouugh. OMG, I got to go to Germany for 2 weeks. That was soo the best. That is where i met Ben from cleveland. I did soo many things in germany that i didn't think i'd ever thought i actually get a chance to do. I got to go out partying which was sooo much fun. We went to a disko. There I got to try a Tequila Sunrise. The only problem with it was that it was really watered down. Too much ice. I also got to try Krumbacker Radler Beer. It is a mix of 7-up and beer. Really good. One of my roommates said that i got a LITTLE tipsy. I kept her up all night that's for sure.
In Germany, when me and my roommates met ben, we'd stay up until 2 or 3 in the morning just hanging out and talking and laughing. He is the only guy i have ever let pick me up, besides my dad. He can make me laugh more than anyone can. I sure do miss talking to him on the phone. But it's for the Best. I'm starting college soon and i don't need any kind of distraction. My sister said i need to put 110 percent into my schoolwork.
I'm going to try to keep working while i'm in college, even though most people are telling me not to. I love working at Dairy Queen. I love the people i work with and I have been there for over a year. I started May of 2004 and i want to keep working there as long as i can. At least until i can get i real job.
I am sooo geting a cell phone hopefully soon. I want a sprint. I hate t mobile. i was going to buy my sisters old t mobile phone but every time i try and get a hold of them to have them send me what is called a sim card, they tell me i can't get one for some stupid reason. So i gave up on that idea. Instead i'm going to try sprint or another kind like nextel or something. Any way i got to get off of here since i have a few things to do this afternoon. Byez.
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